Wednesday, April 18, 2007
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Now, supposingly everyone's asleep, excluding me.
& I thought everything seems to get so short, probably the most significant thing i can think of now is the memories that has past.
Taking a glimspe at the NDP peeps getting ready for the performance, rushing for practises, my eyes are getting narrower toward 9thAugust.
No, it isn't an auspicious date, neither it's a special day which i look forward to celebrate singapore's a jiajun's bdae, it's the day i found myself a new life to carry on. Which is the day that i know grace.
& she's the one who let me found variety of love, not her, but i found this little world belong to me, which is the hong family which i got to know.
Perhaps it's gonna be a year soon, time really passed without waiting for us.
I witnessed so many things happened during those few months, and i witness myself getting in love with someone.
It's fate that brought me here, and me to find a way oto leave me here.
Cuz they brought out the best, a life that brought me out of the darkness.
Cuz it also brought out the sorrows, and I riding on an empty road , .
But hey. it no longer bring me to find a street of laughter,
Things seems not to be as smooth as usual where routines carry on.
No, odelia isnt with me all the time anymore.
We not longer treat one another like the past, telling one another the latest gossips and sjc news update. Instead, we were telling one another how much we want the past, how much we want to see a future that we want, and how much we can solve the pain.
No, B7A1 once vowed not to separate, but we seem so drifted now.
Remembering once we went out together, everyone waited for one sms with me, looking forward to what's her reply as emma sent out the message. I see how much they really cared for me, giving me a shoulder to lean on as i cry, giving me a hand as i fall, and giving me a hug as i trembled.
But hey, i no longer had to wait for one of that sms anymore. Cuz my goodfriend has replied.
What can i do now, tell me?
Was it my mistake to let her enter into my fate?
Or was it my mistake to think too little?
but friend, where is thy happiness?
Or should i just pursue on?
I dont know..
my story ends.
2:45 AM