Friday, April 27, 2007
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these had past so fast. a life with so much obstacles. which yet to be ended. i hate my life. not an ungrateful thought, but a deep scar left in the heart. I see scratches all over.. as all were shot by a dart
these 257 days; when i found why life must still be going on. when i found love isn't about being together when i found the real self letting go. when i found to give away my love to the one that she really need. when i found love aint an easy thing. when i found she doesnt love me.
To me, I Love you, really a lot. To others, these 257 days might be silly. but it doesnt matter anymore.
It took me courages to say the first "i love u". cuz i know the reply will be a "sorry" but it doesnt matter anymore.
I seem to love u till the whole world knows. but what i want is only you to know. but it doesn't matter anymore.
I see your eyes telling me to go. but i just want to be by your side and catch u as u fall. but it doesnt anymore.
Now, i somehow lost contact with you. And i do miss you. But it doesn't anymore.
I tried to lead a new life again after loving u. to wait for you. I tried to smile after every tear. to wait for you. but it doesnt anymore.
And this moment. i realised my life's not gonna be easy. I had already put down the sad memories. but somehow, something seems to enter into my life but i noe, it's impossible. It doesnt matter anymore...
It really doesnt matter anymore; cuz i noe loving u aint easy